consumed...

our hearts and our lives are consumed by these boyz...we love them so very much...last night i had to read a book to remind me, "one toddler is hard enough, much less two at the same time"...then i think about one of those toddlers having a health issue, like asthma, which is not yet controlled...then the other toddler who seems to be taking about two months to still cut a molar and he has three more to go...all of this can consume me and keeps me from completing any task i even try to set my mind to...but i have a WONDERFUL husband, AMAZING sisters and a mother-in-law and father-in-law who can not get enough of the boyz and shoo me out of the house, as well as run to my rescue with one phone call...sometimes it is perspective...when we are in the midst of ewie's illness and i am so short in patience, i sometimes just need to stop overanalyzing and wait for our pulmonologist appointment...i just accept this is our current reality...it will get better...as cam reminded me at bedtime, saying "dora?" when he saw the wedding picture of great grandma dora and great grandpa zarnoch... then we talked about everyone including grandma linda, who is in heaven, with the moon and the stars, as i told cameron...i realize i need to turn it over to GOD and the ANGELS watching over us...