some people have a bucket list of "things" to accomplish before their death...my bucket list is "things" I have wanted to do since my mother's death...it has been twelve years since the gloomy, rainy morning when these thoughts began resonating and have now evolved into a strong list...here's to mom...
1. i want to call you every day...4,383 days to be exact...although i have wondered how you would fit in to the texting/facebook world...i did change my profile pick to red roses in your honor...
2. i want to cook with you...i miss you telling me how much you like my cooking and offering me suggestions or digging in that binder full of recipes to find something i would like...i miss your chicken soup and green beans most of all...
3. i want my children to know you...not just the things i tell them about you but experience such events as "the orange night sleep over" and your enthusiasm about every holiday...including the creepy painted wood figures you made dad put in the yard and especially christmas...
4. i wish we could go to nyc at christmas time and stay in a fancy hotel...since the only images you had in your mind of this wonderful city were from the movies...
5. i wish we could take a trip to paris together...you always dreamed of going there one day...it is the most beautiful city i have ever seen in the day and at night...
6. i want you to tell me the things i do not even realize are bothering me...make me lay on the couch to rest or force me to watch 'steele magnolias' because i just need to cry...
7. i would like to drink tea with you...since i never did when you were living...
8. i really want tell you a funny story, hear you laugh and see your eyes light up...just like lorri's do...
9. i wish you were here to help take care of keena...because you are the medicine she needs most of all...
10. i would love to have just one more moment to tell you about the past twelve years...but i know a moment would not be enough and it would not make me miss you any less...so i will just have to feel confident i said it all or you just knew the 25 years we had together...
Great post. I am sorry that you don't have your mom here. You are all three such strong women that I have to take a step back sometimes to realize just how much you must all miss her. I find some pretty good peace knowing that my loved ones are pouring down blessings on me... I know my life is what it is today because Mike and my grandparents are insisting on it...HUGS
ReplyDeleteThanks Nichole...you really have earned the right over the years to daughter #4 : )
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