birthday party...

great weekend...great party...all contractors out of my house...

LOVE these BOYZ!!!

two...

two parents had two babies (at the same time : )...and they grew and grew and grew and grew...

and now they will be two...

multi-tasker...

she is a multi-tasker...she amazes me...as i can barely handle the day to day chaos of just tuesday...and on tuesday, she has handled two very smart, out for themselves at this stage of the game children by herself+27 other's, who she makes a point to make a difference+comes over to my house to play with two crazy boyz and bathe them+she has lupus, and has been so sick lately and on lots of steroids...as i am downstairs loading the dishwasher...again overwhelmed, just by being tuesday...i feel like i will never compare...and honestly i never will...she is keena...she is amazing...and i love her more than my luggage : )

bedtime...

oh how far we have come...
ewie is all about being rocked and books...amazing to see him pouring over these books like cam...he found a richard scarry book tonight...my favorite book of all times was a richard scarry book, "find your abc's"...he did not even watch tv when he had it...normally i take extra time to rock him to help him relax, but he could not wait to get into bed with his book, "car, trucks and things that go"...
cam...the pharaoh...takes the bottle nipple, luke skywalker, elmo and some bear looking cat that rattles to bed...he skims his bedtime book and requests we dance...i hold him swaying and spinning to the music...he talks to me and gives me pats on the back...i lay him back down in the little cam nest with all of his blankets and "things" and he reminds me he needs his water: )

crazy boyz...

seriously...these boyz are crazy...this is a video of grandpa entertaining them after a long, play hard, outside day!
two favorite parts...cameron's "hi's" and ewie looking for someone before he screams bloody murder...

discoveries...

today ewie discovered he could take his shirt off AND his diaper...and then discovered he could not get them back on...enter me...diaper on and strip bean bag of wet cover...

cam discovered he just might like the jelly-filled "timbits" the most...thanks to cousin caitlin...

i discovered many things...i discovered i am very tolerant to a certain point...i have reached my point...the chaos of remodeling will be over next week and i will look back and laugh...maybe...i just want all of my "things" to be in the same place they have always been...so thankful grandma and grandpa showed up today when they did!

i discovered cam knows, as i knew...grandparents are gifts...you never know how long you have them, but just enjoy every single moment...he's two and he knows this...maybe i knew it at two with grandma dora...but i for sure knew it growing up and took every opportunity i could, once i was in college to spend time with her...cam is my old soul...sweet and gentle, as he slides in beside ewie to see what he is doing, with a pat on the back...but he is not a pushover, because he wants what he wants!

i discovered ewie, despite his rough and tough exterior, needs told everyone loves him...he does not need to copy cam...we all love him for who he is...he and cam are so different...cam slides right into your arms saying everything you want him to say and doing everything you want him to do...ewie is just in his own world struggling to fit in...but he has a smile that lights up a room...such passion, energy and intensity...he likes the same thing everytime...we read "little boy" every day (compliments of the heiby's of st. clairsville)...we are so fortunate to have each of these boyz and i thank God everyday (and mom and grandma dora!)

'round here...

'round here...step one of renovations are complete...step two has been rocky...floor and molding is complete, still waiting for estimates for the entryway/playroom...gave me palpitations since the boyz birthday party is less than two weeks...luckily they guy who did my floor was so helpful and flexible and luckily, we have a backup plan!
'round here at one point today, two guys were putting in the baseboard, two guys were mowing the lawn, two girls were unloading the groceries and two grandparents were keeping two boyz out of trouble...sheer chaos...thankfully everything was completely without injury and two boyz "helped" their mother with some yardwork and finished their day with some playtime...

claim....

cam has another claim...the bubble machine...after several smackdown's on the deck with the bubble machine (cam wanted to own it and control it, e just wanted to know how it worked!)....cam won...and then would not even let ewie on the deck, even near the bubble machine...he just danced to Ghost Shirt with the bubble machine...

cam eventually moved down the stairs with the bubble machine...

luckily e likes the sandbox...

chaos...

our kitchen has gone from

from this...

to this...

luckily we have this...

Bad medicine...

ewie only pushed cameron twice today...that is a HUGE improvement...he has been abnormally aggressive this week...after over analyzing, I discovered it might be the increased pulmacort...called the doctor and decided to decrease it...after two treatments at the lower dose we noticed a difference...when I picked them up from daycare today and discovered he was 10 times better than yesterday, it confirmed...it was bad medicine...the bon jovi song went through my mind...my mother's favorite band...

"I need a respirator cause I'm running out of breath 

You're an all night generator wrapped is stockings and a dress 

When you find your medicine you take what you can get 

Cause if there's something better baby well thay haven't found it yet"

sometimes...

sometimes it is crazy here...there is no way to describe it...just to experience every moment of being on guard and lack of sleep...but... sometimes moments like this happen...no ewie doing the spin move on cameron and cameron screaming because ewie is touching him...and it makes it all okay...hope everyone had a great Easter weekend like we did!!

oxygen...

what a beautiful day...grandma and grandpa came over to deliver the table and chairs grandpa built for cousin caitlin over 20 years ago...cousin margaux had them in her room and graciously passed them down for the boyz...ewie and cam were pumped!!
grandpa was not himself...he is trying to come to terms with dr. franko discovering he needs oxygen at night and when he is "stressed" (per grandpa) or technically exertion...I found grandpa a super cool oxygen backpack on amazon.com, but it did not make it better...what the boyz and I want to tell grandpa is sometimes we all need some sort of "oxygen," and it is hard to admit...I know now grandma and grandpa have been "oxygen" for the boyz and I...since their before their birth...when I was on bedrest, they took me to the doctor and out to lunch, it was the highlight of my week...they were there through good times and bad...the boyz see grandma and grandpa and no matter what mood they are in or how they feel, all is better...grandma and grandpa let me escape and some days it is the only time I can breathe...I feel overwhelmed with the checklist in my mind and grandma and grandpa allow me to check things off my list...we may not have to wear a backpack...and needing anything is hard to admit...but we need grandma and grandpa...they are "oxygen" to the boyz and I : )

p.s. the sandbox from aunt jen and uncle tim is still a big hit!